Today I had my first wedding bridezilla breakdown...
Catering is one of the most important elements of a wedding and today we had our first meeting to create our menu. I really really want this menu to be perfect but I have run into a little bit of an issue... I could give a rats ass as to what food is being served... I care about how it is presented. I know that is shallow but I have used my caterer for many different events and I know that all of the food she makes is yummy. I have no idea what I want on my buffet but I do know that I want it to LOOK amazing. So today as we all sat with our caterer and were talking about what we wanted nothing being suggested was anything like I wanted. It was really stupid to break down but I started to cry because I could not word what I actually wanted. I knew exactly what I did not want and I felt rude but I said no to a million things. I broke down over blue cheese. In the salad cups that we want I asked if we could leave out the blue cheese because I do not like blue cheese. She said no. So I proceeded to say "okay, well lets think of another type of salad dish we could have because I don't really want to have anything on the buffet that I wouldn't want to eat"... It seemed logical to me, but my mom, dad, and caterer all disagreed. They wanted the salad cups and continued to tell me I wouldn't actually be eating at my wedding anyways until we got back to the hotel. To say the least this PISSED me off because I have said from the beginning that we will be having 15-20 min to myself and actually eat. I have seen way to many weddings were the bride and groom literally do not get to eat. This is not okay with me. I was upset, I was frustrated, and I hate blue cheese. I finally calmed down and pulled myself together so we could finish planning the menu. As much as crying was childish, it got everyone focusing on what I want. In the end I picked a beautiful menu and everyone is going to enjoy the meal. In the process of making this menu I wanted to punch someone
but I think it is going to all work out.
So if ya'll don't mind i'm going to bitch about some other things that I need to get out....
1. I am really tired of people not caring. Yes I know that it is my fault I made my engagement 15 monthslong, but COME ON! People are supposed to be excited about this wedding and want to at least talk about it, but everyone except for two people (one bridesmaid, and one person who should have been a bridesmaid) are even remotely interested in this wedding. I feel like I could explode sometimes
because I want to talk about every detail of this day with someone, but when I start talking I end up talking to walls. I feel like i'm talking to myself. I think more than anything I was just expecting more excitement because i'm the first person to get married. I would expect people to want to go to every appointment with me and be involved, but no, no one is interested.
2. Can't you just do what I ask? I have things that I want all of us to do together and It really hurts my feelings that I have done a lot finically for the people in this wedding so not to burden them with money issues so we paid for the things they might not be able to afford later but when I ask that everyone does something all together that might cost 30 dollars, everyone is out. No one wants to cooperate. I know that I said it was fine if yall do those things on your own, I just wanted it to be all together.
Okay I think that is enough for now... I hope everyone reading this understands that I am happy with my wedding overall. I really do love the people around me helping me to make this the day of my dreams. I do not want to become a crazy bride that demands way to much of the people around me. I do wish that the
people would be more interested, but if they can't that is fine.
Hope everyone is having a good monday, Im thinking mine is going to get better, Dustin Dinner is tonight,
that always makes me happy.
